Soul in the Shadows

.PROFILE

oFFiciaL Nick:Lee Xing Cai
Day i PoP ouT:12th July 1989

Some things i Do wHen iM bOred:
-DotA
-GoinG oUt WiF FrienDs

.LIKES

-HonesT,StraightforwarD pPl
-WhitE and SkybluE coLour
-IntEresTinGly dIffeRent wAys tO dO thInGs
-kinD,mAturE pPl
-peAce(by aNy sTanDarDs)
-tAt sPecIal sOmeOnE

.DISLIKES

-ArrogAnce,DiscRimiNatiOn
-BacKStabBers
-Ppl WhO tInkS tHe wOrld rEvolVeS aroUnD tHem
-BullieS
-Ppl hU hIt dEfeNsEleSs Gals
-EntErtainmeNt oN othErs' sufferings
-cuNninG pPl bEnd oN PuLLinG u dOwn
-hUmaNitieS(cAnT UndeRstaNd hUmaNs^^)

.MY PERSONAL RULES

-NeveR bE cAptivAteD bY AnyonE,liVe uR lifE uR waY jUz As u aRe
-giVe eVen uR liFe tO prOtect ur loVed onEs
-hIt nOt gAls unLess tHey dO nOt aCt liKe onE
-dO nOt wAt u dUn waN tO befAll U,bUt wAt u wAn tO
-kIndnEss iS a VirTue
-Who othEr dEn uR SPeciaL 1 dEseRVes tHe bEst?rEspeCt hEr eVeryThinG
-To RetUrn tO earTh waT sHe hV gIveN yOu bY hElpiNg tO sAve thE eNvirOnmEnt

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Tuesday, July 04, 2006

hmmm been quite some time since i blogged,thus i tink i shud add a new post...not out of pity,not out of boredom,but its juz cos i feel like it...tis 1 is gonna b a long 1,so read on if u feel like it...no forcing

its juz after the mid yr exam,and being after the exam,definitely i will switch off my engines for awhile...i hv been dotaing for quite some time alreadi,and even so,i still am kinda sick...not physically,but mentally....exam has been bugging me so much i got tis phobia of it since after the o levels...the tot of it makes me sick to the core...all the competition,all the rush,all the knowledge eating...when i stop and take a look around,i learn more den wat the skool teach...and,there are juz so many beautiful things around tat i missed when i rush...given all the pressures around me,i juz hate it...since pri skool,i hv been challenged by other ppl in results...so many ppl compare wif me...when my mother made me study to win them,it is like,so hard given the conditions...last time,i was not mentally prepared to take up real challenges,and i juz wasnt mature enouf to fight it out...den,when sec 3 yr end,i began to ace my subjects...my 3 sciences will juz get A1s...but,it will juz not be gd enouf...the standard is juz not chosen by me...soon,i was expected to score straight As,which is hella impossible...den,i fell during the o levels...i guessed i overloaded during the prelims,and post prelims,i couldn take it...was too hard...imagine the headache so much u nid to bang the wall,hoping to release juz a lil bit...

how i see my surroundings,does not depends on how they show it...it purely depends on how i interpret it...so far,wat i see is the darkness,with a lil bit of light...the society generally is so sickening...most of the ppl tink juz of themselves...watever is done,there muz b a confirmed benefit..i can imagine how every1 is like......tis is wat i see...i hope to part take in tis race by sitting at the foot of the mountain,watching them fall down 1 by 1...i juz hate to kick ppl down so tat i can rise up...it juz feels wrong...

after the bio paper on friday,i sat down at a back alley bhind the mount faber safra and enjoy the nite air and relax...look around,i see nature...it feels so damn gd...its like,i got refreshed alreadi...after tat,go solowalk in mount faber,its like so refreshing...allows me to tink of so many stuff...past,present and future...hence tis long,crappy entry...

nothing more to say...i feel kinda soulless rite now...its like,my life got no aim...y?cos...haiz,its a blardy long story,but it juz makes me so empty within...