Soul in the Shadows: August 2006

.PROFILE

oFFiciaL Nick:Lee Xing Cai
Day i PoP ouT:12th July 1989

Some things i Do wHen iM bOred:
-DotA
-GoinG oUt WiF FrienDs

.LIKES

-HonesT,StraightforwarD pPl
-WhitE and SkybluE coLour
-IntEresTinGly dIffeRent wAys tO dO thInGs
-kinD,mAturE pPl
-peAce(by aNy sTanDarDs)
-tAt sPecIal sOmeOnE

.DISLIKES

-ArrogAnce,DiscRimiNatiOn
-BacKStabBers
-Ppl WhO tInkS tHe wOrld rEvolVeS aroUnD tHem
-BullieS
-Ppl hU hIt dEfeNsEleSs Gals
-EntErtainmeNt oN othErs' sufferings
-cuNninG pPl bEnd oN PuLLinG u dOwn
-hUmaNitieS(cAnT UndeRstaNd hUmaNs^^)

.MY PERSONAL RULES

-NeveR bE cAptivAteD bY AnyonE,liVe uR lifE uR waY jUz As u aRe
-giVe eVen uR liFe tO prOtect ur loVed onEs
-hIt nOt gAls unLess tHey dO nOt aCt liKe onE
-dO nOt wAt u dUn waN tO befAll U,bUt wAt u wAn tO
-kIndnEss iS a VirTue
-Who othEr dEn uR SPeciaL 1 dEseRVes tHe bEst?rEspeCt hEr eVeryThinG
-To RetUrn tO earTh waT sHe hV gIveN yOu bY hElpiNg tO sAve thE eNvirOnmEnt

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Monday, August 21, 2006

i really shudn b blogging so late at nite..shud b asleep alreadi...but since i couldn fall asleep but mentally veri veri veri tired,i shall juz burn a lil time here...

before i came to a jc,i tot tat life definitely would be in control here...able to study,able to plan my own time for revision,able to even leave time out for ppl around me...then,when skool started,i got the BIGGEST shock of my life. it seems like ending skool so late tat reaching home=time to eat dinner,work=study notes+ individual research=student's life+employee's life. i even get to enjoy the night life doing proj and homework. tis life is actually mentally and spiritually draining. no longer am i the energetic person tat could take on more workload by allowing others to confine their personal problems with me and me helping them, but the lethargic person tat cant even survive a day without the need to bang my head using my hands to try to remove the constant headache away...

i remember mr melvin ho's smirk at the first day of PAE,and it was a friendly 1. now,it seems rather hostile.(he will surely read tis...oh well,im alreadi marked). i remember me wanting to come to skool during PAE due to the classmates and the interesting subjects to learn. now, i dread the sight of teachers and stack of papers(presumed to be testpapers and tutorials).

did i change,or hv i always been the weakling tat i now am?

Friday, August 18, 2006

as fatigue sets in,i realise tat i am in a position where i am unable to decide my life,my time,my fate...when i deceive myself on the context tat i may 1 day reach paradise, i will still fall back to reality,where i just bite dust.

coming out of the bottom of the dustland,all i see above me is the the prospect of a student's life and an employees life, with so many intersections tat it forms an inescapable web, with no solution to cross it. as it sinks down on me, i search around for something which can block off the web,or at least,reduce the pain upon contact. but there are onli shadows of wat painkillers i tot i had existed.

Xing Cai, grant me the strength to overcome the captivity of the education system. may i be liberated from the need of temporary pain release, and face the burden similar to a knight facing an army.

this i ask in the name of the courage,the strength and the fearless spirit,A man