Soul in the Shadows
Friday, September 29, 2006
「 The Soul Has Spoken. 8:06 AM 」
It actually has been quite some time since i blogged alreadi,no?

exams are over...but is everything over alreadi?no,i fear not. When the promos are over,it is usually ok to chill and juz let out the cramps in ur mind. No,i tink not too....tis seems to b an intermediate stage between 2 major battles(promos and A levels)...when the promos are over,yay,can play....nop...it is wrong...there is still project work to work out. there is still chinese A levels tat we nid to put in work...resulting in?cramps in the head...

sometimes,i do wonder how i am gonna survive after i finish skooling?be a research scientist?my ass...how many ppl out there hv more talent and opportunities den me?all these questions hv been there for so long...however,to tink bout it,shud i juz end it all wif a great bang on the concrete floor?hell no...y am i gonna waste my life on such trivial matters?i rather give it so tat ppl benefits(as in,truely)...tis way of death,even the old sweeper will b cursing when he scrape my body up the floor...hmmm

after taking out the option of death,there is onli 1 option left..To live.now lets tink,live?wat kinda life?of course i wouldn live on harming ppl...so tat leaves the option of helping ppl rite?help ppl,help hu?of course those tat deserves or nids help...heck it,i wouldn help ppl like some teacher i knew back in the secondary skool...he can rot in hell for all i care...

im juz totally random here...cos i feel rather messed up right now...after promos,tell?yes,no?i did say i wouldn go bak my words,tat i shud see wat will happen if i tell,be it consequences tat may harm myself greatly...now,to tink of it,did i realli like some1 tat seems to be miles up from me?tat i cant realli understand due to the fact tat she doesnt feel comfortable around me?now now,i do make it sound like her fault,however,it is not...mayb im paranoid,mayb im hypocritical,mayb im cynical,but,mayb she juz is not borned for some lowdown crap like me?i wonder

tats bout the crap i hv in my head tat i put onto the blog...mayb ill try to 4get them and juz get on wif life...after all,extract from 'vainity of vanities':
Never be captivated by anyone
Live your live your way, just as you are