Soul in the Shadows
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
「 The Soul Has Spoken. 7:27 AM 」
so many things in my head,so many irritants out there,so much noise,so much deadlines,so much problems tat i do realli wanna drop everything(including my consciousness)

is like,spent the whole afternoon at the esplanade wif the guys(yes,jeremy also) and some of the class gals...actually,most. ok. den we walk around,played bowling,den go sit around the esplanade playing truth or dare(in the end,onli truth-_-)...hahaz the qns they ask,make me tink bout her...hahaz..wat class,everything...its like,the paparazzi is always the few ppl?hahaz...i said the truth when it got to me,but,i am always able to divert...set in confusion so tat ppl can NEVER guess....pro,aint i?:P

den later at nite,i freaking wasted the whole of the nite...my mother nid go dentist,den i nid follow...like say,sat there 2 hrs watching the tv there?damn it...felt like i hv wasted so much time of my life...after the appointment,my mother told me wat she saw and heard inside the room...there is a male and female doctor,and a nurse...the male doctor seemed to b the head doctor,and kept on scolding the female doctor?is like he pms like tat,den throw scissors,drop on floor,the female doctor pick up...everything also scold...the female doctor?guai guai do watever he say...but the male treat the nurse veri nicely...from general knowledge,can see tat the female doctor would b the male doctor's wife?tats the problem...the female doctor is veri nice towards any1,patients or children...but,how the hell did she end up wif such an idiot for a husband?tats the reason y i put tis up...how can gd gals end up wif lousy guys?or vice versa?it has gotto do wif opposite poles attracting?or is it tat ppl realli are borned to suffer?like me?hmmm...such problems in life are realli realli irritating...

another thing is,i do feel my chance is near zero after all?or shud i even ask for a chance?like the qn joan popped in to me juz now,makes me tink,shud i even do it?i did say b4,i will no go bak my words,but will it cause more harm den good?after all,i did try not saying anything,but,it definitely didnt work...i wonder if it is cos i dun hv smth called 'tao hua yun'(lady's luck)?in a simpler sense,my face puts off gals?LOLZ its not tat i care so much,but if it does,tat alone can b an answer to the qn i hv in mind all along...

digressing bak to irritants,i hv a rather huge irritant wif me...its like,bugger,everything also cannot...i realli feel like going down and punch tat bugger in the face(realli,i almost punched the screen at the tot of the bugger)...damn it,i am DAMN unlucky to meet tat bugger...another word from tat moronic bugger,my wrath will b the bugger's end...

hmmm...to tink of it,seems like being guys in the society now are actually worst off den gals?in terms of social position,males seem to b inferior to the females?liek say,they hv tis 'protective aura' around them due to the presense of their 'bornhardts',and tat everything also throw to guys...i DO hv a soft spot for females,mind u...at least i dun anyhow whack them like i do to bx-_-...but den again,some do realli climb over my head...i dun wanna look up and see them zao geng,but i would rather PULL their legs down and kick them off my shoulders...even when gals fall in love and they decide to confess,the success rate is near 100%(statistics from friends)...of course,the comment made was to refer to those tat realli do tat...so gals,if u read tis,tink about how u treat guys...u noe it in ur heart if u do ill-treat guys...if u do,den tis paragraph refers to u:P ...sometimes,i feel tat guys are softer den gals...the reason gals are able to gain position and status in the society is cos guys permits them to...y do guys permits them to?of course it is cos guys are able to put themselves in the shoes of others,thus allowing tis global change...of course,there will always b guys are realli suck(no doubt),and they can b burnt on the stake...otherwise,do try to b more humane to guys?:P

tats bout all tat i hv in my mind tat i can put down...laterz