Soul in the Shadows

.PROFILE

oFFiciaL Nick:Lee Xing Cai
Day i PoP ouT:12th July 1989

Some things i Do wHen iM bOred:
-DotA
-GoinG oUt WiF FrienDs

.LIKES

-HonesT,StraightforwarD pPl
-WhitE and SkybluE coLour
-IntEresTinGly dIffeRent wAys tO dO thInGs
-kinD,mAturE pPl
-peAce(by aNy sTanDarDs)
-tAt sPecIal sOmeOnE

.DISLIKES

-ArrogAnce,DiscRimiNatiOn
-BacKStabBers
-Ppl WhO tInkS tHe wOrld rEvolVeS aroUnD tHem
-BullieS
-Ppl hU hIt dEfeNsEleSs Gals
-EntErtainmeNt oN othErs' sufferings
-cuNninG pPl bEnd oN PuLLinG u dOwn
-hUmaNitieS(cAnT UndeRstaNd hUmaNs^^)

.MY PERSONAL RULES

-NeveR bE cAptivAteD bY AnyonE,liVe uR lifE uR waY jUz As u aRe
-giVe eVen uR liFe tO prOtect ur loVed onEs
-hIt nOt gAls unLess tHey dO nOt aCt liKe onE
-dO nOt wAt u dUn waN tO befAll U,bUt wAt u wAn tO
-kIndnEss iS a VirTue
-Who othEr dEn uR SPeciaL 1 dEseRVes tHe bEst?rEspeCt hEr eVeryThinG
-To RetUrn tO earTh waT sHe hV gIveN yOu bY hElpiNg tO sAve thE eNvirOnmEnt

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.FRIENDS^^

Doug
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yG
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Monday, November 20, 2006

tis entry is made wif a PAINED heart,a tormented soul,a critter to many...

Ill go straight to the pt...I realli hate tis sorta life...gonig on a out-of-body-experience trip and look back into my own soul,i see a pathetic,useless piece of shit tat is as gd as waste,and wasteful is his life...everyday,i see TONS of shitty things...black faces stares at me like plagues,even the smiles r of a deceitful quality...i noe ta MANY ppl look down on me..yeah,small,scrawny crap..look at my 4 limbs...they r all cuffed and chained...Chained where????chained to 1 person onli...so wats wif tat?im being PLAYED like a puppet...i hv no will of my own,tats wat basically makes me USELESS...totally...

Pathetic?ok,lemme try and see how i fare in various aspects of my life...studies?i gotto take pressure pulling up my scores...y?COMPARE COMPARE COMPARE!!!grrrr tats like me being played,used as a weapon for 'face'...ok,how bout the sector,affairs of the heart?nop,no success at all...not even CLOSE to it...how bout physique?as said,i am scrawny,damn it,i nid the wind to push me forward when i run eh(said by some1)...i cannot carry stuff eh,i cannot do tis,cannot do tat eh?fuck it,i rather DIE den b so pathetic...

In summary,i got onli 1 feeling now,and it can b expressed in tis line:sjigowengweuignyweb wweriuuuuugerhenjivhvbu t4qe2 (done wif half of my actual feeling,i cannot slam the keyboard or i will invoke a series of putting down...im TAT pathetic...cant even slam my own keyboard)