Soul in the Shadows

.PROFILE

oFFiciaL Nick:Lee Xing Cai
Day i PoP ouT:12th July 1989

Some things i Do wHen iM bOred:
-DotA
-GoinG oUt WiF FrienDs

.LIKES

-HonesT,StraightforwarD pPl
-WhitE and SkybluE coLour
-IntEresTinGly dIffeRent wAys tO dO thInGs
-kinD,mAturE pPl
-peAce(by aNy sTanDarDs)
-tAt sPecIal sOmeOnE

.DISLIKES

-ArrogAnce,DiscRimiNatiOn
-BacKStabBers
-Ppl WhO tInkS tHe wOrld rEvolVeS aroUnD tHem
-BullieS
-Ppl hU hIt dEfeNsEleSs Gals
-EntErtainmeNt oN othErs' sufferings
-cuNninG pPl bEnd oN PuLLinG u dOwn
-hUmaNitieS(cAnT UndeRstaNd hUmaNs^^)

.MY PERSONAL RULES

-NeveR bE cAptivAteD bY AnyonE,liVe uR lifE uR waY jUz As u aRe
-giVe eVen uR liFe tO prOtect ur loVed onEs
-hIt nOt gAls unLess tHey dO nOt aCt liKe onE
-dO nOt wAt u dUn waN tO befAll U,bUt wAt u wAn tO
-kIndnEss iS a VirTue
-Who othEr dEn uR SPeciaL 1 dEseRVes tHe bEst?rEspeCt hEr eVeryThinG
-To RetUrn tO earTh waT sHe hV gIveN yOu bY hElpiNg tO sAve thE eNvirOnmEnt

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.FRIENDS^^

Doug
1t17-ignite!
Ain
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Thursday, April 12, 2007

After Mel Ho scolded Dalvin for giving panadol to a friend whose full medical condition is unknown,it got me tinking...and i realised,Im a helpless fag when it comes to giving first aid now...my lovely first aid kit is gone,and i still am suffering from the recession of losing my bag...my first aid cert. is expired,meaning tat i cant give help when ppl gets hurt on the road...It sucks to be so useless.

Damn it,i wanna take my first aid test,but,i dun even hv the 4 days required...-_-

People always ask...Why izzit tat i train myself even though i hv tis heart condition?Am i not afraid of dying?My answer is always,I do not wan my medical condition to be an excuse for being weak. True, but not the most fundamental reason i guess...I still remember...Sec 1..how I was weak...and literally bullied...get pushed around,get thrashed...From then on,I told myself,To NEVER again be so weak tat i cant even defend myself...If i cant even defend myself,wat of people i sought to protect?I will again be a helpless worm?NO...I will NOT allow such situation to happen...therefore,i train myself,in defense,to protect myself,and more importantly,to protect others...Fear of death?I would say no...I get gross out by methods to die,and not death itself..No reason why...

I sometimes do get exasperated by something called redistribution of wealth and power...i mean,of course we should help people with difficulties,but not every1,when accepting help,will strive to improve...these are the people tat do not deserve such help,and shud always remain poor...similarly,people do not hv power for reasons...either they dun deserve it,or giving them power breeds problems...therefore,wat good would it do if one juz ask for wealth and power but not strive for it?such people actually deserves none...

However,society tends to go towards helping every1,including those who do not deserve it...after all,sacrificing the deserving is wasteful..so..its up to us individuals to kill off those who are not deserving:P

Im such an unfeeling asshole...