Soul in the Shadows: March 2008
Thursday, March 27, 2008
「 The Soul Has Spoken. 8:38 AM 」
Hmm..something 1 of the new ppl said hits me as rather true..sad truth eh..lolz

say,"why would any girl want a PES E person unless they have no other choice? As in,its human nature to seek for healthy guys right?"

Point taken,its true,and perhaps i know why im like that now..lol..


Tuesday, March 18, 2008
「 The Soul Has Spoken. 8:58 AM 」
Damn it..so many fucked up things happened this i HAVE to use the word fuck..

First of all, it sucks when i dun get to run my life..its always,i wake up,ding,she planned my whole day,wat to do,where to do,everything. feel like a lifeless bot that lives to be used to gain honor for her..bahh..if i dun start doing things myself,imma be backward in management skills, other than backward in social and relationship skills already..TSK..

Next, why the FUCK did i get such a STUPID bloodkin that ALWAYS wants me to be below him(not that he is very high in his standards) and to make mockeries out of me...NOT acting like a real bloodkin is bad enough, treating me like a noob so as to gain some self-esteem is worst, but the ultimate is SABOTAGING me when i do IMPT things..what a loser...ill LAUGH at him when he come begging me for copper coins next time..

Lastly, i feel the same increase in hormonal levels i had last time..the yearn..DAMN it..i try to kick myself outta it,but it still comes back...looking at my history,its all girls that care squat bout me when i like them...TSK..is liking ppl(love mayb too) be so TOUGH on me? ok,i am short,and girls typically wants guys that is taller than them by at least half a head..gives a more secure feel eh..or some guy who goes around looking cool,makes lotsa aquintances tat runs away in the slightest sight of trouble...HM..height is not smth i can control..so such things i have absolutely NO power to do anything...as for looking 'cool', i don't too...it just doesn't suit my style to look for unstable friendship as i been backstabbed and attacked MANY times..so,in other words...im SCREWED..

TSK..life's like this,go sleep


Tuesday, March 04, 2008
「 The Soul Has Spoken. 7:48 AM 」
worry sets in..A level results are out on friday,2.30pm..somehow i dont feel like taking the results..mainly cos i may need to retake,and i HATE retaking..its like,so many arrangements that the school made last time,and now i have to make the arrangements more independently..very messy..i dun tink my results will be good..and i dunno wat will happen after that..that worrying..is sickening...so what can i do now?nth..nth at all..except worry..sian..

went out with the class last saturday..1 of the outings that have turnouts more than normal..not too bad..but things dont really change..we really didnt do much..eat at central,eat at azabo sabo(i tink spelling is like that),den sit on the bridge at clark quey...talk awhile,den people starting going home(cos to catch the last train)..so..didnt talk much either..den cheryl,denise(cheryl's pri skool friend),shane and me go zouk..tmd,no phuture tickets,so stay down there get bored,smell cigrette and listen to music that i think is hard to dance to(70s music)>< yeah..rather eventless..

gtg sleep lo..tml still must wake up early..mayb ill see the terrorist guy..den im getting his signature and kick him to the nearest police station..who knows?:P