Soul in the Shadows
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
「 The Soul Has Spoken. 8:58 AM 」
Damn it..so many fucked up things happened this i HAVE to use the word fuck..

First of all, it sucks when i dun get to run my life..its always,i wake up,ding,she planned my whole day,wat to do,where to do,everything. feel like a lifeless bot that lives to be used to gain honor for her..bahh..if i dun start doing things myself,imma be backward in management skills, other than backward in social and relationship skills already..TSK..

Next, why the FUCK did i get such a STUPID bloodkin that ALWAYS wants me to be below him(not that he is very high in his standards) and to make mockeries out of me...NOT acting like a real bloodkin is bad enough, treating me like a noob so as to gain some self-esteem is worst, but the ultimate is SABOTAGING me when i do IMPT things..what a loser...ill LAUGH at him when he come begging me for copper coins next time..

Lastly, i feel the same increase in hormonal levels i had last time..the yearn..DAMN it..i try to kick myself outta it,but it still comes back...looking at my history,its all girls that care squat bout me when i like them...TSK..is liking ppl(love mayb too) be so TOUGH on me? ok,i am short,and girls typically wants guys that is taller than them by at least half a head..gives a more secure feel eh..or some guy who goes around looking cool,makes lotsa aquintances tat runs away in the slightest sight of trouble...HM..height is not smth i can control..so such things i have absolutely NO power to do anything...as for looking 'cool', i don't too...it just doesn't suit my style to look for unstable friendship as i been backstabbed and attacked MANY times..so,in other words...im SCREWED..

TSK..life's like this,go sleep